same old same old

This week it is back to the same old grind stone. Spring break came and went. It did not really feel like a break to me. I worked 50 hours that week so I was very tired. I also had to study for two midterms in my two hardest classes. Sometimes I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown if I do not slow down. Then there is the insurmountable financial burdens. My husband just opened a chiropractic office so there won't be a steday income from that for probably several years. This is why I work so much and attend school full time. I just feel like I am not able to give the attention I would like to my studies. I do get A's most of the time, but I do not know how much information I am retaining after the exam is taken. There are some things I need to know. I am going to take my CPA examination in a few years. They have questions from all levels of your education on that exam. It just concerns me that I can not do as thorough of a job as I would like to due to time constraints. Sometimes it bothers me so much I just want to cry. I know I shouldn't be so particular, I guess I am just a perfectionist. I really need to learn how to take time for myself. Maybe someday I will learn that lesson, but for now I am just trying to survive.

exams

Boy this will be a really stressful week. I have four midterms on Thursday. Two of the midterms account for half of my grade. I need to get a's. I must get a's. Nothing else is an option. I suppose I will not get much sleep this week. Next week is springbreak, but I have two papers I need to work on. One of my papers must be 15 pages in length and we have not gotten specific instructions from our instructor yet. He is probably sick of me asking for instructions. I really need to get started on that paper. I am on a major diet also. I need to lose five pounds this week. I will try to spend five hours in the gym this week. It is getting difficult to keep up with schoolwork and my work at my job. Not to mention taking care of my family. I just have to stay focused. I need to get a's. My career depends on it. Nothing else is an option.

I need a vacation

I need a vacation. People are starting to comment on me looking tired all of the time. I guess I thought I was some kind of superhero or something making my schedule this demanding and stressful. I have no time for fun or my children and barely any time for sleep. My husband and I were supposed to take a vacation in June, when we got married. Now I know what they mean when they say take your honeymoon right away or you will never be able to make time. He is starting a chiropractic office and teaching four sections of anatomy and I work a job full time( where everything seems to fall apart when I am gone) and I am taking five classes. Sometimes I just feel like I am going to collapse. I actually need to take two weeks vacation before July or I will lose it. There is just never a time I can take off. I am a supervisor at work and I am the only one in my department. So if I have a big project it isn't like anyone can cover for me. I also don't go home and just relax. I feel like I clean all the time when I am at home. My family could really help me out on that front. Luckily the science fair is over so I don't have to worry about the science fair project getting done anymore. I can go back to just worrying about the regular stuff. Well I guess that is all I have to complain about this week.

under pressure

I am really feeling the stress of being a full time student, having a full time job and having a husband and children also. I have been on and off sick for the past two weeks. I am convinced it is due to my stress level. My classes are really starting to pile on the work. I am so busy it is very important that I keep up in all of my classes. I just keep telling myself that this crazy, insane schedule is only for one semester. I just really wanted to get these classes out of the way so I can transfer to Maryville. Let's see what else, oh yeah, my daughter has a science fair project due on Wednesday. This is our first year really doing a real project and of course, she had to pick a project that was rather complicated. I am also trying to help my husband open hid chiropractic office in my spare tiem(ha! ha! ha!). He is just so excited about his office I hate to rain on his parade. I have my first exam in accounting this week, so I have a little nervous anticipation abouth that. Alot of people complain that my instructor is too hard, but I disagree. He just explains things in terms of how they are in the real world. I really prefer his teaching style, but we will see how the exam goes. I am a pretty decent student so I expect to do pretty well. Actually I will be shocked if I totally bomb the exam. I feel like I know the material rather well. I usually spend more time on accounting than some of my other subjects since it is my major. Although I cannot complain abount any of my classes. I guess I am just at an age that I really enjoy learning new things. It is more of a priveledge to go to school than a job, but maybe that is because I have a full time job. So hopefulle, god willing I will get in better health and get a handle on my stress.

school problems

Well this week was very eventful for me. An elderly woman drove through the cafeteria at my son's school killing one of his classmates. Talk about something you never expected. My first reaction was sheer disbelief. It really did not hit me for a few days. I came within minutes of loosing my son. You see he was in the cafeteria when the incident occurred. Just less than sixty seconds earlier he was standing right next to Ryan, the boy who got killed. It is just such a tragedy. It really makes you evaluate your life. You should cherish the time you have because you never know when it will end. So my son saw firsthand what happened. I did not have to hear it from tv or the newspaper, I got it first hand from my son. He saw the whole thing happen right in front of his young eyes. I worry about what the effects will be on him. The school has been real good. They have had grief counselors and have done activities.

An introduction

Hi! My name is Sarah and I am new to blogging. I work full time and go to school full time. I also have two children. I work 16 hour days on Monday and Wednesday so I can attend classes. My husband is a new chiropractor so I am helping him to open his business. I am getting my degree in accounting so I also try to help with the billing and I like to keep an eye on the books. I don't have alot of spare time, but when I do I like to watch movies, spend time with my family and my best friend( who is alsao like family). I really struggle with the guilt of being away from my children so much. I know it is for the best of my family that I complete my degree, but children are only young once. I already think about all the things I missed out on just from working. Now I am practically never at home. When I am at home I am usually too tired to really be any use to anyone. My job is also very demanding. I feel like I am responsible for everything in my department yet I don't have the authority to do anything to really make any significant change. This also a reason I am working so hard to get my degree. Hopefully things will work out with my husband's practice so I can cut back my work hours and really focus on school.